Bah, anyhow, I'm not really focused today. I'm getting tired of this rambly intro, and don't know why I think this is important. I guess what I'm most frustrated by is that this move was supposed to put everything in place, and it put a lot of things into perspective instead. I know there's worse problems out there, I actually read the news, and I'm not out here tryin' to cry about it. Shit happens. I get it. I'm now doing my part by your definition because you didn't want me in another capacity. Yeah, there's better decisions I could have made, but much like Former President Bush, I went with my gut, I didn't take the popular route. Guess we see where that got us.
Anyhow, Jersey sucks, but I've got a job, my computer will be up and running again within a month or two, I'm really content to be living where I'm at. Things are tight, but it's all starting to feel like there's some potential to do something that matters after all. Not sure what that means yet, but I expect there's now a chance for me to realize it.
My life's on my shoulders now. I'm doing the best I can. Probably should have siezed bigger opportunities in my younger days, but I don't think I'd have remained a writer. Who's to say? People have their opinions about what I have or haven't done. I lived it, I left no children in my wake and tried not to drag anyone down with me -- how successful I was on that point is up for debate. How much shit I've had to eat in the last five years is not.
And I think that will do just fine, as far as intros go.
I've got to get to work.
- Markus
